Again with the re-examining of life. I've been putting off blogging intentionally because I have to REALLY think of things I like besides Ed, my cat, my family, my bed, my iPhone and laptop, and eating. I am glad it's summer even if it is HORRENDOUSLY hot. Like bad. I did a 5k yesterday in 35:20, not awful. My legs kill today but I did 6 miles on the bike too. Getting it together but for now it is a suckfest.
I'm going to wuss out and go with TV shows I look forward to. So sad.
1. Locked Up Abroad
2. Mad Men
3. Dexter [wtf?]
4. Intervention
5. The Office. I have 2 seasons to catch up on now, will make for a lovely fall saturday.
Because I prob don't have a free Saturday until then, FML.
Beyond that, I look fat in Martha's wedding pix and I look fat in Daddy's pix from yesterday. Didn't stop me from carbo-loading today. Vicious cycle.
Also, starting the wedding plans, discreetly. I'll just figure it all out and tell Ed we're doing it. This is how we work.
Monday, June 28, 2010
Monday, June 21, 2010
lazy, busy, blah blah blah
time warp week, and it's looking like this will be too. when does it end? how do people work this much? when do you LIVE????
is this why people have children, to feel something? i can almost understand that. not get behind it or buy into it, but i get it.
ran 1.5 miles this am, did the shortest lamest bike ride EVER after work. less than 10 minutes, no joke. but no spills. and i love my helmet. 7.5 mi race on sunday was bumped to a lame old 5k. yuck. daddy and i need to plan a longer run, they are impossible to find. whatevs.
1. My potential snack shop life plan. Details to follow.
2. My week off. I need it.
3. Fireworks, next weekend!
4. Stupid quarter being over.
5. More dog-looking, hopefully dog-getting. My parents have HIGH standards. Of course, they'd have 6 pitbull rescues by now if it was up to me.
back to ed's depressing poulltion documentary. who am i dating?
is this why people have children, to feel something? i can almost understand that. not get behind it or buy into it, but i get it.
ran 1.5 miles this am, did the shortest lamest bike ride EVER after work. less than 10 minutes, no joke. but no spills. and i love my helmet. 7.5 mi race on sunday was bumped to a lame old 5k. yuck. daddy and i need to plan a longer run, they are impossible to find. whatevs.
1. My potential snack shop life plan. Details to follow.
2. My week off. I need it.
3. Fireworks, next weekend!
4. Stupid quarter being over.
5. More dog-looking, hopefully dog-getting. My parents have HIGH standards. Of course, they'd have 6 pitbull rescues by now if it was up to me.
back to ed's depressing poulltion documentary. who am i dating?
Monday, June 14, 2010
Excited, exschmited
Not gonna lie, I have zero energy and patience today. The wedding was so lovely but so 7 hours away. I hate distance driving, and I am definitely a stress-pot cause now sitting in the car for more than like 2 hours makes my back and hips hurt. What's up, Octogenarian?
1. Next weekend I have nothing to do. NOTHING. Maybe dinner with Beth and Laura or Ed and Jen, and then Father's Day. That's it!
2. The first week of July, off. Like off-off. Getting paid for time off would be much nicer but I'm just glad to have some time to sit and plan stuff.
3. Red Sox Thursday? Interleague play is weird but I love the park and it's supposed to be nice out.
4. Bike riding, if I keep typing positive things about this will it insure that I don't fall off once I actually get on it?
5. The new HBO prohibition show will be on and Kenny Powers will be back in September. Which will be here in the blink of an eye so I'm going to start getting jazzed now!
1. Next weekend I have nothing to do. NOTHING. Maybe dinner with Beth and Laura or Ed and Jen, and then Father's Day. That's it!
2. The first week of July, off. Like off-off. Getting paid for time off would be much nicer but I'm just glad to have some time to sit and plan stuff.
3. Red Sox Thursday? Interleague play is weird but I love the park and it's supposed to be nice out.
4. Bike riding, if I keep typing positive things about this will it insure that I don't fall off once I actually get on it?
5. The new HBO prohibition show will be on and Kenny Powers will be back in September. Which will be here in the blink of an eye so I'm going to start getting jazzed now!
Friday, June 11, 2010
Road-trippin'
Ed and I are currently en route to Martha's wedding! It is in rural NY state so I fully expect us to be lost in about 45 minutes but for now the trip is good and I'm excited for the festivities. I hope my boobs stay in my dress, there are certain things even the fab tailor at Hillside Cleaners can't fix. Alas.
Happy about
1. My summer is still free after this weekend, only a couple things percolating.
2. The Target dog. Love.
3. Dinner Monday at Judy's
4. Pavement in September
5. Cirque de Soleil in August
Am I reaching if I have to put things 2-3 months away?
I may need to examine my life even more.
For now, I'm just trying to stay alive with this maniac driving
Seriously.
Happy about
1. My summer is still free after this weekend, only a couple things percolating.
2. The Target dog. Love.
3. Dinner Monday at Judy's
4. Pavement in September
5. Cirque de Soleil in August
Am I reaching if I have to put things 2-3 months away?
I may need to examine my life even more.
For now, I'm just trying to stay alive with this maniac driving
Seriously.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Merci
My blood sugar is so low right now I can barely think, and I just spent 1 hr hanging up clean laundry. The WORST. My brain is a constant hamster wheel of things I'm forgetting. Ugh.
Anyhow, despite of my HORRIBLE LIFE [sarcasm, of course], here's what I'm appreciating today:
1. job got renewed for 3 more months. Frustrating in ways and still not my life's passion but it's opening some doors and moreover it's cash-money.
2. my birthday being over. Birthdays and holidays are always massive build-up and then some semi-fun fizzle with good food. Such was the case. I need to realize I don't live in The Great Gatsby and get a better idea of what it really means to have a party, BEFORE I'm in the middle of it.
3. my beautiful diamond ring. It scared me at first, and marriage scares me in general [not due to ed, due to being a full-on adult], but I stare at this shizz daily and it always makes me smile.
4. my cat being 13 with no end in sight; that would seriously crush me
5. beer plan with the KAS. Could turn out awesome, and I am in dire need of a lit fire under my ass.
5b. I got a new print in the mail from the KAS, and it is beautiful. I've already framed it and I'm figuring out where to put it. Ahht.
Anyhow, despite of my HORRIBLE LIFE [sarcasm, of course], here's what I'm appreciating today:
1. job got renewed for 3 more months. Frustrating in ways and still not my life's passion but it's opening some doors and moreover it's cash-money.
2. my birthday being over. Birthdays and holidays are always massive build-up and then some semi-fun fizzle with good food. Such was the case. I need to realize I don't live in The Great Gatsby and get a better idea of what it really means to have a party, BEFORE I'm in the middle of it.
3. my beautiful diamond ring. It scared me at first, and marriage scares me in general [not due to ed, due to being a full-on adult], but I stare at this shizz daily and it always makes me smile.
4. my cat being 13 with no end in sight; that would seriously crush me
5. beer plan with the KAS. Could turn out awesome, and I am in dire need of a lit fire under my ass.
5b. I got a new print in the mail from the KAS, and it is beautiful. I've already framed it and I'm figuring out where to put it. Ahht.
Monday, June 7, 2010
Monday List
I ran to Target in Somerville and back part of the way [Ed met me and we walked the rest, perfect weather!]. 5 miles. Like 70 minutes...14 minute miles?! Acck, I'm supposed to be getting faster not slower. 2h10m half marathon is moving far, far away vs closer as hoped. And I ate like a pig this weekend, but it WAS my birthday. And I haven't run in 2 weeks. I need to get it together. Running 4-5 times a week - no excuses!
My list of things I'm excited for-
1. Getting married. Who knows when, but I'm getting more stoked on this.
Def just the 2 of us, and that's the part I want - the party aspect gives me anxiety.
2. Setting up my calendar and addresses on the MacBook, total dork.
3. My bike helmet will lead to biking. This will lead to being skinny which will help me look pretty for #1.
4. Maybe a new real job. Maybe?
5. The summer not being busy. Please let this happen. I need it. If busy involves an impromptu trip to SF for a long weekend, that's acceptable. If busy involves bullshit that eats up my whole summer, I will be displeased.
My list of things I'm excited for-
1. Getting married. Who knows when, but I'm getting more stoked on this.
Def just the 2 of us, and that's the part I want - the party aspect gives me anxiety.
2. Setting up my calendar and addresses on the MacBook, total dork.
3. My bike helmet will lead to biking. This will lead to being skinny which will help me look pretty for #1.
4. Maybe a new real job. Maybe?
5. The summer not being busy. Please let this happen. I need it. If busy involves an impromptu trip to SF for a long weekend, that's acceptable. If busy involves bullshit that eats up my whole summer, I will be displeased.
Friday, June 4, 2010
ps
It's free donut day at Dunkin' Donuts. Not the best tasting thing ever and def not the best thing to put in my body, but free is free and a Boston Creme at 6:50 am while driving to suburban office park hell is not the worst thing in the world.
TGIF
For real, this week has been bleeccchhhh. Way too busy with work stuff and post-work commitments. Last week too. On the positive, I am so much more productive when stressed and time-crunched, but the production is for work or stuff for other people. Translate to, my house is still a mess and tomorrow is going to be frantic up until 3:58. I need to figure out how to channel my energy to the parts of my life that matter.
happy or good list-
1. Chesterfield sofas, come on.....
2. Chanel purses
3. Tea
4. McDonald's sundaes. [what's up, profile pic!]. Maybe McDonald's in general, minus the whole giant corporation, fake food, people are fat aspect
5. Macerated strawberries, I'm making you tonight
I'm thinking I may need to move this list to Thursday and make Friday a lessons learned from the week post. This week I learned:
1. I will use any excuse in the world to "not find time to exercise". Even with a SEVEN.FIVE miles RACE coming up in THREE WEEKS. I haven't run in 2! FML.
2. I am a crazy person when it comes to my job. Fickle and emotional and all over the place. I am completely the opposite of this in every other part of my life. And I should clarify, I'm not fickle or emotional or nutso when doing actual work, just when thinking about where I'm at, where I'm going, what I want. This better go away by 35.
3. Parties make me nervous. I knew this.
4. Ed and I can fight while cleaning without breaking things, progress - yay!
5. I love spending money. LOVE. I knew this too, but it needs to be typed because it can turn into a Bad Scene.
happy or good list-
1. Chesterfield sofas, come on.....
2. Chanel purses
3. Tea
4. McDonald's sundaes. [what's up, profile pic!]. Maybe McDonald's in general, minus the whole giant corporation, fake food, people are fat aspect
5. Macerated strawberries, I'm making you tonight
I'm thinking I may need to move this list to Thursday and make Friday a lessons learned from the week post. This week I learned:
1. I will use any excuse in the world to "not find time to exercise". Even with a SEVEN.FIVE miles RACE coming up in THREE WEEKS. I haven't run in 2! FML.
2. I am a crazy person when it comes to my job. Fickle and emotional and all over the place. I am completely the opposite of this in every other part of my life. And I should clarify, I'm not fickle or emotional or nutso when doing actual work, just when thinking about where I'm at, where I'm going, what I want. This better go away by 35.
3. Parties make me nervous. I knew this.
4. Ed and I can fight while cleaning without breaking things, progress - yay!
5. I love spending money. LOVE. I knew this too, but it needs to be typed because it can turn into a Bad Scene.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Wednesdays will be things I'm thankful for.
On today, I am thankful for:
1. I am healthy as shit, the older I get, the more important this becomes.
2. My family is awesome in a noninvasive way. So is Ed's. What are the odds?
3. My MacBook. Srsly, LOVE.
4. Maintaining an income even though I'm unemployed; way luckier than others even if I pout like Bitter Sally ALL DAY LONG
5. Not giving a shit about weddings or babies. I would have no hair left. And I'm glad it's not a fake and stressful not caring, it's legit. Way better stuff to focus on in life. I do give a shit that Ed will be my husband one day, and for that I am ALSO thankful.
Off to Fenway, where Dice-K better give me some more stuff to be thankful for...
1. I am healthy as shit, the older I get, the more important this becomes.
2. My family is awesome in a noninvasive way. So is Ed's. What are the odds?
3. My MacBook. Srsly, LOVE.
4. Maintaining an income even though I'm unemployed; way luckier than others even if I pout like Bitter Sally ALL DAY LONG
5. Not giving a shit about weddings or babies. I would have no hair left. And I'm glad it's not a fake and stressful not caring, it's legit. Way better stuff to focus on in life. I do give a shit that Ed will be my husband one day, and for that I am ALSO thankful.
Off to Fenway, where Dice-K better give me some more stuff to be thankful for...
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