Friday, February 27, 2009

BFNP [Boring Friday Night Post]

Blah Friday, blah everyday lately. Good news was I was less sick today, still like 85% vs 100... So I WFH and my day was dead as a doornail until 1 and then it was nuts to butts. But it's over and then we went out to Sei Bar around 6:30 and it lived up and exceeded expectations! Yay!

I'm on my 3rd sequential episode of Bad Girls Club and getting ready for bed. So here's what I ate today...no exercise, but I did get some laundry done this morning.

Bagel, with tea
Fiber 1 bar
Udon noodles
Yogurt
Juice
Tea

Edamame
2 Malibu Monsoons
Chicken katsu w/ rice
Sushi
M&M chipwich

More juice, I'm super thirsty today - weird. I'm having more now.

Ok, this Aliea girl on BGC is craaazy and like funny crazy, she tries to be hard and looks like an angry 6 year old with bad highlights. I waste so much time wtaching TV. I should re-focus; here goes: Tomorrow, jogging, arms, home depot, clean, fix my floors. Maybe Old Navy. Although I just paid off my bills [relatively speaking...ha], why do I insist on spending more and more money immediately? Acck.

Someone is playing horrible techno music outside or in their apartment or something, I can hear it in my living room. Annoying. Hopefully it stops shortly, Princess will be displeased if he hears it when he gets home. Beyond that, no news is good news. Oh but I guess they're digging up my street for a month starting Monday, that will be an adventure. TGIF - Off to bed before my sickness that is waning starts to wax!

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Longest Week EVER

Addendum: I missed 2 beers [after cycling] and a Fiber 1 pop tart from Tuesday night, buzzed-blogging is not the most effective way to record my life.

Yesterday was Wednesday, went to Westford. Had my bagel, a couple cups of tea [I feel like I'm getting sick...not crippling just kind of ugh since Tuesday night]. Went to Papa Ginos for lunch - so good but way too much food, I had 2 slices and a Papa Roll, with a full-sugar Cherry Coke. The coke was less than awesome, I was sad to have wasted calories. But overall, a good meal. I wanted a pull out couch in my cube after but that's what a full meal will do midday.

Came home and had a Fiber 1 poptart and some fish sticks while watching the TC finale. I hate Hosea, that's all I'm saying about it. Had some Chef Boyardee MacnCheese from a can that had that artificial gross taste that I can tolerate from the ravioli, not so much from the Mac. It was gross, I still ate maybe 2/3 of the can, I'm like a stray dog, I swear. Had a couple more V-Day candies and some more tea. My teeth are going to be dark brown by 2010. Did 11 miles on the bike and my arms too [not doing bad with the moving lately, progress!].

Which brings us to today - Thursday. I had some tea, some juice and water - so trying to flush out the SICKNESS. I really do not want to be sick for the weekend. Had 2 blueberry waffles with EB and SF syrup. Went into Cambridge and got a HEC on an everything bagel and 2 more cups of tea.

We had our company rah-rah. Mandatory vacation, not awesome but there are worse things happening in this economy - way worse. I never take my time off anyway, this will force me and could e a good thing. Mini trips and house projects! I always think, I just need a break, this will be several breaks. Oh and I keep eating Werther's Originals randomly through the day, I'm 98 years old inside.

Had my yogurt too, and more tea and a Fiber1 bar. Came home and had some noodley thing Ed made and some chicken and MORE tea. Acck. Had some juice and then tea and some of those Petit Ecole chocolate cookies - those are the shit. No exercise today, I feel run down and will be working from home tomorrow. Laundry and biking while I slave away. I need to get my act together training-wise, I have like 8 weeks to learn how to run 10 kilometers. I know I can do 5, not sure about right now and god the concept of running outside is scaring me but it will make my dad so happy. And I inherited my dad's braggard tendencies and will loooove telling people that I finished it.

Ok, that's it. I'm going to finish this episode of Nip/Tuck and go to bed. Hope to wake up feeling much improved.

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

6 Older Siblings

That's how I eat, as if I have 6 large, hungry, older brothers and sisters eyeballing my food. I've never been to prison, we've always had plenty of food...where does this stem from? Alas, right now I am nursing a lovely roof burn in my mouth, due to bagel-inhalation.

I'm tired, it was a long day filled with the iCycle impending doom and completion - briefly because I am going to bed like now:

arms in the AM, 45 min spinning in town at 4

bagel, tea, a yogurt
PB&J burrito
some water
6 triscuits
ramen noodles
4 left over pieces of v-day candy
more tea

that was my day // good night!

Monday, February 23, 2009

Is it May yet?

I am DYING for summer, maybe it's the house that I so want to improve yet keep telling myself that all the projects will be so much easier in warm temps, maybe it's the dark that comes too early, maybe it's the boredom [which is scary these days] of work, maybe it's the outrageously priced heat that still doesn't warm my house...but I am wishing for a heat wave and a break with my entire being. I am not depressed winter blah-y, but I'm just so over it. More frustrated and stuck, I guess. Not over it enough to move of course, then I'd have one less thing to complain about.

Anyhow, so I went to Shaw's after work, around 6 and by then I had the LBS shakes pretty badly. Thanks, salad! Upon arriving home, I shoved down a Fiber 1 pop-tart [delish, still not sure if I trust these Fiber 1 things, but people seem to sweat them. Who would've thunk that Fiber would become cool or trendy or appealing? Marketing is an odd and weird kind of geniusy field] and that helped immensely. Then I made one of those quick stove-top pastas in the bag - alfredo and I threw some tomato in there, it was really good but I was also like drool-starving [I'm copyrighting that] so who knows. I just had some cinnamon raisin toast and some tea for dessert. Yum. I think I'm done for the day? I wanted a cocktail when I got home and did not have one so brownie points there. God, now I even sound like an alcoholic. Yuck.

Tomorrow is the iCycle. I'm doing a bagel to carb up [love the justification games my mind plays] and then a 3 we head in town. Fun times. We'll see. I started to actually write down my "training plan" for the 10k. i am a bit nervous but honestly felt unprepared for the 5k and managed that without dying or even hurting too much the next day. I've realized a huge part of my procrastination is that I neglect to cement things - like write them down, make that appointment, call whomever. Instead I dilly-dally and obsess. Not sure why my brain prefers the latter but I've never claimed to understand my brain. Also, I keep forgetting everything. Mid-blog, I remembered something I want to blog, and now I have zero idea. That is terrifying. More crosswords and solitaire and scrabble.

Diners, Drive-ins and whatever on Food Network is making me so hungry. They just featured mozzarella sticks in Atlanta that are wrapped in pasta pre-fry. OMG. I'm looking up tickets on Expedia right now, not joking.

Eh: And then there was Monday

5 day week, hope it flies by. Can't be any worse than last week, aka the longest 4 day week EVER. Seriously, someone should do a study on perception of 4 day vs 5 day work weeks.

So, I rode the bike yesterday for 11 miles [about 40 min] and did my arms. Those are getting less annoying, still not easy but not torture. I still feel sick after completing them, hoping that goes away. I do like that under my grandma-flab, I can feel my muscles. If only the stomach muscles reacted as quickly as the biceps and triceps. Oh well.

Let's see what else, yesterday I think I had some juice and H20 with my workout. Then I went to my parents and had some wine, glass of red and glass of white [my mom informed me that I have "loose lips" when I drink, making me feel like a total alcoholic, so I'm going to cut back even more on the boozing]. Then we had a supper of white wine coq au vin, bread, broccoli and asparagus and some noodles. It was delicious. Then I had some orange, tea, a few truffles and an oatmeal cranberry dipping cookie for dessert. Had some juice and water as well. Got home and tried starving but then folded and had some microwave popcorn and seltzer. Then I had 4 tiny chocolate hazelnut squares from WF. Went to bed, slept ok. I hate Mondays, especially when they're covered in ice.

Today: Had my bagel and earth balance [gross!], some tea and a reeses mini. I just had lunch, a gross salad and tiny crust of bread with a diet snapple. I am just repeating in my head, You will be fat in June every time I want pizza or more cheese or fries. Pfffttttt...misery is not eating what you want to eat. Once i get in slightly better shape I can eat more bread. More bread!!

Back to work.........

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Piles of Post-It's

Not sure how I pluralize that: whatever. It's been almost a month, I've been trying to keep notes here and there of what I eat and what I do and how I work out but it's all just become an overwhelming mess of teeny pieces of paper all over the place, and to be honest, I'm never going to catch up at this point. Basically, I have hardly exercised for 2+ weeks and have been eating profusely [shock shock shock], so not good news. Been drinking slightly less so that is a plus, but besides that.... So, that being said - or typed - February 22 is the new January 1.

Today I made some WPF cinnamon raisin french toast and had that and a yogurt for breakfast with some tea. And some Cadbury Mini-Eggs, because we all know that's a breakfast staple. I had some seltzer and juice, and just had a couple more cups of tea. I am catching up [again] on Season 2 of Big Love and will watch the last episode on my current NetFlix while biking in about a half hour. The 10k is 4/26 and I am SLACKING. Supposed to start running outdoors next weekend. I did 10 miles yesterday and my arms, plus 10 minutes on the Wii Fit. Oooh, and I somehow agreed to stationary bike outside on Tuesday afternoon for charity. I only have to do a half hour, but it's supposed to be a whopping 33 degrees, tops. Joy!

Ok, I'm kind of ehh now, bad case of the Sundays. Bad case of the Winter Sundays. I need a kick in the ass but I think I have to do it myself, ugh. Heading to my parents in a bit, more later.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

I should be at Trivia

But alas, the weather gods continue to frown heavily on my state. What is up with this? It's treacherous to drive and no one else was going so blahhh. I'm sad but really didn't want to walk there either and this is NOT drunk driving weather. Not that I ever drunk drive, but this is not even 1 beer driving weather. Next week.

I just onDemanded a new Platinum Weddings. I should caveat - I am not obsessed with getting married myself. I'd definitely like to be married someday, to Mr. Ed, and it will happen in some way or another. I'm more looking forward to a honeymoon of nothingness. I am going to an island without cell service for like a month. Or Italy for like a month. By I, I mean we - see why I shouldn't be getting married yet? However, I do loooove me some Platinum Weddings, Bridezillas, Rich Bride/Poor Bride, etc. I just find it fascinating, in the same way I love bad celebrity gossip. Anyhow, they just had their rehearsal dinner in a Wine Cave. I want a wine cave! Where do I get that?

Ok, so I left off on Sunday Night. The Steelers won, whatever. I had some thai food from a place nearby. Garlic Chicken Udon noodles, some veggie dumplings and some shumai. Really good, excited we found it. Then I had some tea and 2 reeses, a could of Dove caramels [gone now, thank god], no exercise duh.

Monday was another no exercise day, I hate Mondays. Worked from home, had my bagel, a yogurt, a banana, lots of tea and juice. Ed and I split a loaf of WPF garlic dill bread with butter for dinner. I know, not the best but this cold and dark crap is making me want to just CONSUME. And not move. Uggghh. Starting to run outside March 1. I was supposed to get organized, so I am going to calendar my life tonight, I'm already a month in and I have nothing, sad. Anyhow, had a couple of Reeses and some tea before bed.

Today I had an apple, my bagel, some tea, did 10 miles [35 min] on the bike, did my arms [still feel nauseaous after, is this what "pushing yourself" feels like? I don't like it]. Let me tangent, this endorphin bullshit is exactly that - bullshit. Exercise makes me angry, I hate it, I hate the time it takes up, I hate the way it makes me sore and tired. We'll see, I'm hoping I get through this and move into that blissful land that healthy skinny people seem to exist in. Right now it's just annoying and aggravating.

Back to food, had some juice and H2O for my workout and then some oatmeal with syrup [sugar free..meh] and bananas for a late lunch. I just had 1 square of Shaw's frozen pizza [not Roachies, but it's close]. And I ordered a large pizza, salad and some mozerella sticks from Angelina's that are on their way. I'm bad. I need some kind of kick in the ass, the Wii-fit ain't cutting it. Enough with the ranting, once the snow stops I'll feel better. Now back to MTV True Life "I'm in a love triangle". Who could ask for anything more?

Sunday, February 1, 2009

Super[?]bowl Sunday

Certainly doesn't feel like much of a Super Sunday, oh well. I say bring on Spring Training. The puppy bowl is adorable, I admit...but right now we're watching old Law&Order and I'm figuring out whether to be good or bad for supper. We need to find a go-to chinese restaurant around here...I am craving some kind of dumpling.

This morning I had some IB early, some tea, a bagel and some tomato-cheesey-eggs courtesy of Princess. Then I made myself some grilled cheese mid-afternoon and had some juice/seltzer. I went through my correspondence [a constant in my life] and took the dog out a few times. I Wii-fitted for 42 minutes including a 20 minute, 2.5 mile faux run; and I did my arms. I have felt sick since...weird. I waited like an hour and half after eating to work out but I still feel kind of sick. And the grilled cheese was p-e-r-f-e-c-t, cooked just right, not greasy just amazing.

It may be a combo of work dread and I've been up since 7:45. I am definitely not ready for a dog. When I feel I am ready, we will be getting the most lethargic animal ever and patching the holes in the fence. A dog door, and we're golden. Although I must say, Mia is sleeping on Ed's legs right now while he naps [SHOCK] on the couch and it's pretty damn cute.

Ok, off to look up chinese restaurants in Medford on Yelp. Between that, laundry and emptying out my Yahoo, things are getting craaa-zzy. Bah.

Wow I missed a week.

I started this Monday and jotted things down like 40 times all week so this is a progressive piece, but still - I'm lazy. I have a major case of the winter blahs, nothing serious just a strong urge to stay in bed and/or eat mashed potatoes and cinnamon rolls at all times. Actually, now that I read that, not that different from everyday life minus the bed thing. Oh well. I just want it to be warmish, I loathe the cold.

So it's been a bit since Saturday…about which, I remembered I had an apple during the day as well. For my Saturday night date with my couch [we're almost going steady], I had that yogurt, some tea, some peas with butter, 2 chocolates and some water. Went to bed earlyish and read, Ed was at a party at Mark's until 2 or so.

Sunday, I did 30 minutes of biking to IASIP, did some of my arms and weighed myself on the Wii-Fit. Went to the parents and had some beef, potatoes, gravy, broccoli, a roll w/butter, wine, some juice, and a teeny cup of mint chocolate Dove ice cream. Got home and had some Chex mix, more tea, 2 dove chocolates, and more juice. Do I eat too much? I don't think I eat so much BAD stuff as my portion control is in fact out of control. That will be the name of my first diet book once I get skinny - patent-pending so hands off, bitches. I just get so rude and angry and lifeless when I don't eat enough. Like my dad does correct portions but then I come home and eat a snack, or 7. Not good - when will I inherit my parents' good habits? Accckkk.

Quick review of the week, pretty boring:

Monday
I had some instant breakfast, my bagel, some tea, some juice.
Worked from home and had some chili over rice w/ jack cheese.
More tea, a giant hunk [like 2.5 good size pieces] of bread and butter for dinner.
Then some more tea and a SKOR bar. B&B for dinner = heaven.

Tuesday
Bagel w/ B&C, some Tea
99 for lunch half a RB sandwich and some salad, with free popcorn [can't say no] to start and a diet coke.
I think I had a banana when I got home?
Went to Trivia: had my pizza and 3 beers and we suuucked it and lost hardcore.

Wednesday
I W'dFH again and made some bomb-ass [1996 lingo] WPF French toast
This filled me up and I had it pretty late so I had Udon noodles as a snack.
And then a Bagel w/B&C for dinner [what?]
A Banana, 2 dove chocolates, some tea
Water, juice, throughout the day; some riesling and some popcorn during Top Chef.

Wow, in review I did zero exercise Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday: BAD. I need cable in the Offigym [just christened it that] STAT.

Thursday
Went to WF, had my Bagel and some Tea
Some H20, hit up McD's for my happy meal for lunch
Ed made Burritos for dinner [yum - and I only had one because they're FILLING]
We split a dessert Watchamacallit….ooh and I had a couple of Mini-Reeses on the way home
56 min on bike [16 miles] // Arms [20 reps of each]

Friday
No exercise
Finagle big-ass HEC w/ Bacon on an everything, DD Large Tea
Seltzer throughout the morning [keeps me awake]
Med chili from ABP [mehh], Diet Pepsi
Teeny square of Bob's lasgna [made up for the chili]
1 Piece of scali bread and butter
Dessert was a mini-slice of carrot cake and a mini-éclair. Both were delicious, and local: have I mentioned I LOVE Medford? F the North End, it's so much easier to park here.
And we got a turbine! Yes, let me tangent for a moment: we now have a large and in charge, and very visible wind turbine in the back of one of our schools on 93. I am very proud of my new city, I think this type of stuff actually makes a dent in a potential issue, in a responsible and non-obnoxious way. It's a smart and future-thinking idea and I think it cost over half a million dollars but I am totally ok with that [my brain rarely allows crazy spending like this under the strict confines of my old-white-man POV]. I was siked to see it tonight on my way to my parents, I did a small cheer. The more I live here, the more I feel really comfortable and pleased with our decision. Time will tell, but I am really siked to be a happy homeowner, even if it means sitting on my couch blogging in Target clearance rack pajama pants on a Saturday night. Which is what I'm back to doing right now. In fairness, I've shopped the clearance rack since Targets came here [Oh-Happy-Day! I've been watching way too much Big love lately]. It's also cold and I prefer hibernating to pretty much anything else right now but….

Come to think of it, I'm actually in a much better mood now [Saturday night, even though my time line above is only up to Friday - sorry, I'm confusing] than I was when I started this earlier this week. I love visiting my parents and sleeping late, 2 things this weekend has allowed already. Now I am dog-sitting and will not be able to sleep in tomorrow, but hopefully I can go back to bed. Or actually make my Sunday productive and wake up early. That's no fun! We'll see how early I get up.

Back to Friday/yesterday: Small post-work trip to Desfina: couple pieces of calamari, one amazing piece of uber-garlic bread w/ tomatoes, some fries with mayo [yes, mayo]. I also had 2 glasses of wine, which reminds me I had a Corona and come chaaaaadonnay at work [earnings meeting in a recession, needs booze]. We came home and I had a mini-reeses or 2, I think? One of those Fridays, and I'm learning the recap is not my string suit anymore. Sad. I did a drunken walk to Whole Foods around 9pm. For some Cinnamon Bun Ben and Jerry's - which prompted me to shout its delicious merits while consuming it last night. It is amazing, I wish it had 0 calories.

Now as I mentioned, today is Saturday. Darling woke me up with a HEC on a bagel. Had some Tea and Juice. Ate a Banana pre-workout. And a Reeses mini. Went to my parents and had killer LBS en route so I ate an apple. At 5 Keane, had a glass of Wine, really awesome Cook's recipe baked ziti, some WPF ciabatta that I brought. Speaking of which, newsflash of the century is that if I could stop eating bread products - not even all carbs, just frigging bread - I'd look like Kate Moss. It doesn't seem that much when I eat it, even though I know I'm being naughty. But then I have to type this and read it and spell check and I'm just like "Sheeit, I'm lucky I don't look like Jabba The Hut". Back to supper: broccoli and chicken in a lemon glaze rounded it out. I had some cranberry juice and then we had teeny pieces of a WPF [yes, also me] Chocolate bread Pudding cake with some mint chip Dove ice cream and peppermint tea for dessert. Yummy! I came home and had some tea and cinnamon-sugar scali toast [with Smart Balance and surprisingly ok - I had 2 pieces]. I was late for dinner because I worked out to episode 3 of The Tudors today: 12.5 miles on bike [40 min] and my armcersises [I'm on a roll tonight!] - 20 reps of each per arm.

That's it, my head is spinning and it's 12:20 so I'm going to take Miss Mia out and go to bed. Tomorrow is the Super Bowl, I would care less. Although the Phantom Gourmet guys are making me want to eat a spread the size of a small state. I will try to resist. I need to get things done tomorrow, I am so sick of weekend where I accomplish nothing, it's pretty much every weekend. I need something to kick me in the ass. And I need to win the lottery. Excuse my typos and nonsense, long and dull week. Hopefully February is the New January. TTFN!