TGIF

For real, this week has been bleeccchhhh. Way too busy with work stuff and post-work commitments. Last week too. On the positive, I am so much more productive when stressed and time-crunched, but the production is for work or stuff for other people. Translate to, my house is still a mess and tomorrow is going to be frantic up until 3:58. I need to figure out how to channel my energy to the parts of my life that matter.

happy or good list-
1. Chesterfield sofas, come on.....
2. Chanel purses
3. Tea
4. McDonald's sundaes. [what's up, profile pic!]. Maybe McDonald's in general, minus the whole giant corporation, fake food, people are fat aspect
5. Macerated strawberries, I'm making you tonight

I'm thinking I may need to move this list to Thursday and make Friday a lessons learned from the week post. This week I learned:

1. I will use any excuse in the world to "not find time to exercise". Even with a SEVEN.FIVE miles RACE coming up in THREE WEEKS. I haven't run in 2! FML.

2. I am a crazy person when it comes to my job. Fickle and emotional and all over the place. I am completely the opposite of this in every other part of my life. And I should clarify, I'm not fickle or emotional or nutso when doing actual work, just when thinking about where I'm at, where I'm going, what I want. This better go away by 35.

3. Parties make me nervous. I knew this.

4. Ed and I can fight while cleaning without breaking things, progress - yay!

5. I love spending money. LOVE. I knew this too, but it needs to be typed because it can turn into a Bad Scene.

3 Day Instant Weekend

3 glorious days off and squat to show for it. I had such grand hopes and basically wound up breathing in too much bleach and yelling at Ed. Which would be fine except that he got me a beauteous new macbook for my birthday and I am a big jerk. But he is also a big jerk as I have no time this week to do anything and we have my birthday party on Saturday, so we were supposed to get the house into tip-top shape. And he promised! The promise resulted in him hanging 2 shades and a couple curtains. Thanks.

Anyhow, I'm back to my nearly constant state of no relaxation and no productivity. Barf. I did sleep a lot. And had some good burgers. And this thing is so shiny and perfect it kind of makes up for it. Needless to say, my week will not allow for exercise nor did last week. I have been eating ok, still too much but I cut back on sweets. Minus the JP Licks trip I berated Ed into tonight. I have a 7.5 miler on June 27th so June 7th training goes into full gear minus Martha's wedding. It seems daunting, but I think I'm just despondent in general. Off to bed, this post is just to put in writing [cause that helps so much...] that I now have no excuse to shy away from the blog. Half marathon in less than SIX MONTHS - FTW!

Here's what's going to happen

It's 1.5 hours until December. I have basically wasted another whole year of life - but it's not too late. December can be the new January and then January might ACTUALLY work for once in my life. Sadly, I just realized that today, November 30th, I ate bagels w/ CC, tea, Iggy's bread with cheese and tomatoes, more tea, juice, japanese white rice with soy sauce, more tea, 2 pieces of garlic bread. And a banana. For real, I have the White/Beige food group covered but I'm missing the rest. And I'm starving. Alas. Upward and onward.

First, good things from this year:
1. Princess gave me this beautiful ring that I stare at constantly. I love it in so many ways and am so happy-happy with him. Now when I turn onto my dreaded stretch of 495 en route to Westford, I am pleasantly surprised by a universe of mini rainbows from the sun reflecting off of it onto the inside of my car.

2. I turned 30, no great shakes but an accomplishment in itself. I am an adult! My party sucked, but I'm glad to have good friends and that Mark has since stopped drinking.

3. One year in the house, no disasters. This is a mini-miracle.

4. Fun trips - Cali, Seattle, visits to friends. VEGAS THIS WEEKEND! As much as I bemoan traveling, it makes life interesting. Plus new food establishments are always welcome.

5. Family is happy and healthy, myself and Linus included. Sometimes that's all you need.

Ok, so now let's plan. Major upcoming events:

Vegas 12/3-7 I'm eating whatever I want and not jogging, FTW.
Ed b-day dinner 12/19 Free pass.
X-Mas 12/23-5 Again, anything goes. Maybe I'll try moving at least one of these days.
NYE 12/31 We may have a party, I may put on 5 lbs. Although I ate very little at the Halloween fest.

After that, free and clear for running and salads [joy!]. In focus, I have Martha's wedding in June and Meagan's and like half my female cousins in September. These are all motivating. If I see one more picture of me at a wedding with granny arms, I'll shit. Going to try and lose 30 lbs by June, 40 by Sept. Is this nuts? Probably but I'd like to check out Ms. Moss' [paraphrased] sentiment "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" for myself as a grown up. I can always go back to over-eating and sitting on the couch later in life. Plus this gives me a head start for my actual wedding for which I need to look fabulous. I'm thinking 3/6/11 in Portland at VooDoo Donuts [a free pass day as well], we'll see. Ed should probably have a say in this too...hmm....

So I'm thinking 10k again this April and then...half marathon in the Fall? Maybe? I need to research a. easy courses and b. how/if you pee while running that far. Seriously, I am obsessed over this aspect. I had to stop once on a mini-training jog to tie my shoe and it was PAINFUL to restart. And I can't imagine jogging in place while squatting on the side of the road? Gross, I need to stop thinking about this.

Ok, off to bed. I'm not going to lie and say I'll be back tomorrow, but I am going to prepare my training/eating master plan on the flight to Vegas Thursday night. So till then!

Blog v2.0

I'm not even going to fake it with the where the fuck did the past 3 months go comments...it was summer, I am 30, people I know like to get married, and have babies, and move, and host BBQs. I like to go on vacation and to Red Sox games and out for dinner. The economy sucks and I'd like to keep my job. I have no excuses.

So as I mentioned in my last post, I need a new sub-title. I am now 30, a rubenesque-joggy 30. I have good days and bad - ran a 5k with Bobby G on Sunday and just wolfed 4 plus-sized Nutella s'mores because it's Thursday and why not. Que sera, sera.

I keep reading all these blogs and getting Blog-Envy [lamest sounding term ever, noted] so I am really going to REALLY try and get it together for October. New month, new quarter, no big interuptive vacations or events planned for the near future. The weather is lovely, life is pretty good. I need to embrace it and take note. I'm deciding my 30s are going to get a bit more introspective. Not wackadoo-hippy, and hopefully not old, but I really do need to get it together to stop feeling so pointlessly frantic all the time.

One of my new, or old but new recognization [is that a word? no], goals is to not whine.bitch.complain so goddamn much. Or if I do at least also take the time to consider how awesome 99.99999999997% of my life actually is. This will yield more lists, yay and nay, good and bad, happy and annoyed, whatever and whatever. I LOVE LISTS! ProRun is almost over and I'm sick so I need to go to bed but to start here are 5 things I'm happy and thankful for right now:

1. I love my house. I love turning on to my street. I love my overgrown yard. I love my mess.

2. I love that we are going to Vegas in December. It's not even October and I can almost TASTE it already.

3. I love cable. Sad sad sad but true.

4. I love that tomorrow is Friday.

5. I love that I have a washer and dryer in my own basement. Laundry is so much more palatable when you do not need to leave your house to do it.

And as a bonus per the preview I just watched, 6. I love that MICHAEL KORS IS BACK on Runway next week! Woot!

1 non-love is that another bulb in the chandelier just blew....that leaves me with 2 out of 6 remaining. It's like 1890 up in here.

Time to change the blog-blurb

Because I am no longer "trying" not to be a fat 30 year old. I am in fact 30, and I am still a little too thick around the middle for my liking. I've been lazy. What else is new? Being lazy is a theme of my life I keep trying to deny, but I L-O-V-E doing nothing!

Adding fuel to the fire, work is slow due to our lovely economy. With that, it's also an odd mix of stressy and paranoid. I still have stuff to do [a good thing!] but minus the normal screw ups, I have a lot of down-time. One would think this would increase the amount of blogging, but not the case. Lack of inspiration or motivation or activity or whatever is like quicksand, it sucks you in! I always thought I was lying [or "exaggerating" as we say in sales] when asked in an interview what my weaknesses were and I always replied "I need to have more to do rather than less". Apparently this prophesy has self-fulfilled.

With the amount of time I have on my hands these days I should have a clean house, 3 handmade dresses, a couple domestic projects started, my magazine clippings organized and archived, a spreadsheet of my life color-coded for reference, my eyeshadows organized by shade, and some needlepoint started. Instead I have half-ass attempts at getting it together. The piles of post-its are worse than ever! So I need to really get it together, for real.

One plus to being 30 is that I've noticed when I try and talk myself out of exercising, a part of my brain creeps in with "You're not getting any younger". Not in a mean way [I am president of my own fan club, always], but in a factual way. Seriously, I'm 30. This is so far applying to eyecream and exercising, and eating healthy - sort of. Just this July, AKA Newly Inspired July [even if I have to fake it], I have been pretty good - running yesterday and riding the bike today. Granted I had both days off, but the hope is that I get into a good groove through Sunday and then it carries over to the work week and FOREVER! Life changes are good it they are positive.

I will try and use this to hold me accountable, fingers crossed. Let's see, since forever ago what's changed. Not a whole lot, same house, same job [yay!], Ed and I still love eachother, no pets. New TV, my sister is a blessed human and decided to buy is a 40 inch flat screen for fun. Love her. Still go to trivia, family is still well and good. Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett died last week. I'm only throwing that out there because I'm watching MTV on my giant television and there is a constant scroll of MJ news. We had an awesome vacation to Seattle/SF and while it's kind of sad to have nothing to look forward to, it's sooo nice to have that out of the way. I have something to talk about when people ask and nothing to pack or save money for for the balance of the summer. Work Lindsay and I are planning a Thelma & Louise trip to the West, but that is contingent upon us keeping our employment.

So it's July 2, let's recap so far and I need to promise to keep up on things better.
Wed 7/1
No work [mandatory PTO], got a new TV. Ran 2.2 miles in the mist [have I mentioned it does nothing but rain these days?]. Breakfast was scrambled eggs w/ cheese and 2 slices of toast, tea, some seltzery concoction. Spent the day shopping, treated myself to McDonalds post-Wal-Mart [does it get more American than that?]...it was so good. It was a day off, I like to have fully wonderful days off. Bad shopping and fast food were necessary to deal with the craptacular that Mother Nature was putting on outside. Ed came home and we ordered Pizza and had that with beer. I've taken to mixing my UFO with seltzer and lemonade and it is divine. So I had half a Pinky's basil and tomato and a small bowl of caesar salad and a beer. Not awful. I don't think I had desert, we have nothing in the house desert-worthy but I am so spacey lately that I can't remember.

Thu 7/2
Ondemand on my cable is busted. Comcast really sucks, I hope FIOS gets here quickly and is a big imporvement. Biked for 45 min while watching the end of The Money Pit, about 10 miles. I had a HEC on TJs whole grain toast and some tea and juice. I also had most of an apple [I used part of it to set new fruit fly traps, we have an issue this week due to an overripe pineapple and Darling's inability to use the trash can for disposal of food items]. I just had a slice of pizza for a late lunch. I need to eat more frequently I think, I got from full to starving and then full-full again and it's annoying. Add it to the list. Speaking of which, here are some current life goals:

Keep a better blog.

Eat fewer sweets, cut down from half the breadbasket to a piece.

Run or something every day.

Get up to a half marathon before it snows.

Get my budget and calendar in order.
I have a goddamn iPhone 3Gs [new, and I LOVE it], they must have an app for this.

Do dog research, not for now...but maybe like 2012. I like a long runway.
We're back to thinking bull terriers. They are badass.

Get rid of fruitflies in our house. This is nasty.

Maybe I should add "watch better TV" to my list. I just discovered Maria Full of Grace is on IFC. It has SUB-TITLES! I have never watched anything in my life with sub-titles. I think I've heard this is good, and I know it has something to do with drugs and teenagers, 2 themes I enjoy, so I'm going to stick it out. Very hard to type and read the television simultaneously so that's all for now. Gaudet, out!

Erin Go Bleerghhaackkk

My sentiments exactly.

WFH today, had some yogurt and tea for br, banana.
2 pieces WPF toast, more tea, some juice. Had PB&J on a tortilla, I like that even if Ed says it's totally weird. More juice, went for a run. Sucked at first, got better, got even better to the point that I thought I could do 2 miles but I bailed after halfway through my 7th lap [so 1.5 straight...not awful]. My plan is to be up to 2 miles this Saturday, then I guess start taking it to the streets?

Daddy says the course is flat, that's good. I will go on google maps and find a local flat course. I know it won't be a huge difference but the race is not on a track and that's all I've been running on. Today was a bit encouraging but exercise is still not the urge I wish it was in me. Alas. I will have to take some advil next time and maybe look into good muscle food...like bananas? There have to be others. I am sore.

So hit up WF and had a salad of tomatoes, mozzarella and cucumbers and 2 big pieces of garlic toast on the WPF. Some kind of dill onion, it has big chunks of onion in it, not a fan comparatively. Not that it's stopping me from eating it. No trivia tonight due to St Patty's, next week. Now I am going to make some tea and have a sweet while I watch season 2 of The Tudors: a nice simple night. So far it's ok, except the king has a bad teenage mustache and more hair this season, not sure how I feel about that. Beyond that, mindless and medieval as usual.

In keeping with my quote last night to "eat healthier"

now that I have a full kitchen of food....today was again a massive fail. Work is stressful, the honeymoon of a new year is def over for now and it will be nuts-to-butts until summer. I need a vacation. As much as mandatory time off sucks money-wise, it will be good to have some breaks. Now if only we could pick somewhere to go...we bounce between tropical island of nothingness [neither of us have ever done this] or diner road trip [yum]. And I still want to Vegas for my birthday, although maybe a vacation for my b-day would be better. Maybe birthday dance party / karaoke on the actual day and then vacation the following week...or earlier, I have no idea. I hate that I need to factor in end of quarter, ahh sales.........can't live with em, can't pay for anything without em.

Wow blather, I am in a vile mood. Worked from home again today, won't even get into the last time I showered, let's just say it definitely wasn't today. People who don't work from home sweat it, understandably, but it is a VORTEX, so easy to get sucked into. I pity the fool who accuses me of not working when I'm home, I swear I work twice as hard. But yeah, day was nuts, fires all day, everyone needs everything yesterday and I kept getting major attitude and having to bother people I like unnecessarily about trivial assholery. Glad it's done.

Heading to Beth and Laura's in a bit, having some vino and bread and cheese, that will put me in a good mood. And they have Charlie the dog and a kitten, well cat now, and I love pets. Ok, so no exercise, I suck. Food:

Bagel w/ EB and CC, tea, yogurt, juice with seltzer
More tea, a maple cookie
LC of butternut squash [ehh]
4 WF B&W sandwich cookies [not as good as the maple but I could eat them for days too], more tea
Just had an apple and some homemade lemonade with mint [YUM YUM YUM]

Off to bathe so I don't embarrass my boyfriend in front of his friends, which is saying a lot cause cleanliness has never been his strong suit.

Busy busy!

Busy week, almost over and looks like the weekend will be snow-free, sunny and forties. Woo-hoo! perfect get the f out of the house and go running weather, yay. Really trying to sike myself up about this. Daddy just sent me an email with the 5 races/runs he has planned for the next 3 months, including a marathon, 10k, half marathon, etc. How we are cut from the same cloth, I'll never know.

Anyhow, it was Monday and now it's almost Friday. I went to WF Tuesday and Wednesday and worked from home today. Trivia Tuesday night, Jenny Dee show last night and then we hung out with Pickles and Krotty until like 2 am [I was reminded this morning that I am old and that's why I don't do that anymore...and I only had 3 drinks, it was not a wow i was so wasted unpleasantness, more like, wow i got little to no sleep and it's only Thursday unpleasantness]. I'm tired, I have exercised all week either. PLAN PLAN PLAN. I plan to plan and still can't get it done, uggh.

Ok so Tuesday: cafe bagel w/ lite cc [gross], tea, pad see euw and a DC for lunch at a new Thai place up there, very decent. Had some reeses and tea, went to trivia had 4 slices of my pizza [better than the whole 8, right?] and 3 beers. Came home and had more reeses and tea. I am nothing if not predicatble, but writing it down is getting almost embrarrassing.

Wednesday: bagel w/ EB, sushi with LR [chicken katsu, miso soup, mini crab rangoon, sushi, salad] and a DC. More reeses, more tea. Came home and had a banana and 2 waffles for dinner. Ooh, I had 1 gin and tonic after work with the WF crew, at the grill. It was good, I hate that I have to drive home from there because I would've had 1 or 3 more. Had my waffles, went to the Middle East at 9, had 2 more gin and tonics, got bless Pete the bartender that we know, he makes a good cocktail! Went to Crossroads after and they had more beer, I had the diet coke and then OJ at their penthouse [I love that I just typed that!] and by the time we headed home I was dead sober and so tired. Refrained from McD's on the way home, which was particularly impressive as the way Ed got me to stay out way to late was saying we could stop. But I need it like I need a hole in the head. And by not going, I got to describe how I could eat my own arm right about now and make him feel bad. Got home, went to bed, awesome.

Today, had some eggs with american cheese and a last slice of WPF. Had a yogurt, some instant breakfast. Made a PB&J tortilla for a late lunch but I'm starving and honestly the only reason I havent eaten more today is that Princess had the car and we have zero food. So with that, I'm off to grocery shop. I will try and err on the side of healthy. I think I'm going to do TJs and Shaws, we will be stocked up by the weekend; I heart food!

When I grow up, I want to be a dirty hippy!

I've never uttered these words, I actually hate dirty hippies. However, tonight I would've made my parents [clean dirty hippies in their own right....activists they would say] proud by walking to a town meeting, looking at maps, reading leaflets, listening to my community for 2.5 hours and then walking back home and using my reusable grocery bag at Whole Foods to pick up a few organic whatevers on my way back to the homestead. I love my town! Or city, we're a city. Seriously, as annoying as some of those people were, it was really great being there and seeing people care and talk and voice their opinions and interact. There had to be 300 people, I would think the Green Line would be a no-brainer but apparently there is LOTS of controversy.

Controversy, schmontroversy, I'm siked. I could care less about the pollution as long as it's not excessive [I live it a city, part of that is that it's dirtier here than the country - deal with it]. The commuter rail is already loud, I've learned to live with it. I do not need a parking garage considering I can walk to 2 of the stops. And by the time I'm 40 I will have a 15 minute ride into the city and never have to deal with parking. I am excited. And hello property values. Again, I'll believe it when I see it [and if those m-fers try to come in and take some of my yard, I'll go crazy...but I can't see how they would, geographically?], but it's nice to be at the start of something and I feel like we are. Everyday I feel better and better about our decision to get this place, not that I had remorse or regret upon buying, but I would say I was just scared. If you fuck up buying a house, you are kind of screwed. Anxiety and my brain are like moth to the flame up in my head. So yeah, I keep hugging Ed and telling him how happy I am that we made a good choice and that I think we made the right decision and it's wonderful. He is like "Umm, yeah that's why we bought it and moved in 6 months ago" and per usual, thinks I'm totally weird.

Anyhow, so that was my night. Worked from home today to not have to deal with the Wintry Mix. Barf. It was a blessing as the gas guy came by and needed to get in the basement [I'm still convinced it was some kind of set-up; I am my mother's daughter] AND warned me that after 7 am tomorrow, we will not be able to get out of our driveway and we should park up the street. So fingers crossed that our car is still there in the AM [and un-tampered: lots of car horror stories lately]. I will get a permit this week, I have slacked on that but I blame the RMV and their confusing registration policy.

Ok, so had some oatmeal with bananas and syrup for breakfast. Had some tea and some juice. For lunch, I had 2 thin slices of the WPF bread with butter and cream cheese. However, wayyy less B & CC than I usually use. So yay. Then I had a yogurt and more tea. I think that was all, my memory is shot. Oh wait, I tried to have cup of soup but it was gnarly [too much water and then I'd tried to bolster the pasta quotient].

I ran 4 Wii-miles and showered and went to my meeting. Had some sushi from WF after, and some strawberries [so good, so worth the $4 - it's like spring in my mouth] with splenda. A vodka juice cocktail, light on the vodka...Intervention always inspires me to drink. Maybe to remind myself that unlike the poor souls on TV, I can stop after 1? I am beyond thankful for that, everyday, I cannot imagine being an addict, it's got to be exhausting and sucktacular. Anyhow, just had some crusty french bread with butter [fresh baked at WF...yummm] and some mozzarella, tomatoes and OO/vinegar with spices and S&P. So good.

I will be having a couple sandwich cookies too, they were cheap and looked delish. It's like 11:30 now though, I need to knock off the late eating. In fairness, it feels like 10:30. Which means I need to go to bed. I hate DST, seriously. When it gets warm it will be better, right?

Another Wasted Weekend

Growing very tired with how I waste my free time. For example, today I drove my ass all the way to Trader Joe's in Arlington, only to become disgusted and drive all the way back to the Whole Foods that I can walk to...seriously. I need to plan and get some foresight and make the best of the time I am NOT WORKING, since that takes up way too much time. A paycheck is a neccessary evil, not saying I don't want to work. Just saying a 4 day work week would be awesome but since I only have 2 days off at present I need to get it together. Arrggh, I am in a funk.

I never finish things either, like organizing my stupid online photos or fixing my floor - got some staining done today but I apparently need to buy varnish separately? wtf. I think I may have over-sanded too, thus cementing why I never do anything - I'm afraid of screwing it up. So, I'm calendaring and logging my post its ALL OF THEM by Tuesday at trivia, that is a hard deadline and I'm treating it like a work deadline. Nobody is going to kick my ass but me.

Sorry for the bitch-fest, let's refocus and get positive again. I woke up thinking it was 10 but it was 11 [daylight savings], made breakfast: scrambled eggs and some WPF dill/potato/onion toast with butter and juice and tea. Very good, made some for Princess and he was still sleeping so I brought it up to him in bed, I am a good girlfriend. Did some floor crap, laundry, tried to clean - failed miserably. Ed brought Jack over and we went for a walk around the block, it was beautiful out today, like 60 degrees, I am so stoked on Spring. Wintry Mix on its way tomorrow during the morning commute hours...oh wait, I'm supposed to be staying positive, right? Came home, did almost 4 miles of Wii jogging and my arms. Princess critiqued my arm exercise technique, I told him to shut the fuck up and mind his business. I know my technique sucks, I'm working on building stamina and strength and then I'll improve the form. Logic and reason are overrated.

Had some more juice, some Werther's, showered, took the pointless drive to TJs, went to WF. Got some steak for supper - we had steak and mustard sauce with asparagus and rosemary french fries. Very good, Ed is an excellent chef. Had some rum drinks and bread and butter after, then 1.5 Newman PB Cups and some of their dark chocolate, neither was good - noted for next time. Just had some tea, watching some HBO. This Eastbound and Down show is genius, god bless fancy overpriced cable.

Back to Being The Laziest Blogger Alive

Slack City, USA

Tuesday night: Had my pizza and 3 beers. We SUCKED at trivia, it was just Martin and myself and in fairness, the questions were hard and it was more that our wagering was way off. Alas.

Wednesday: Bagel with earth balance, some tea. Busted into the Reeses early, had 2. Went to Chillis and had queso and a buffalo chicken salad with 2 DCs. Gross, well the queso was good but the salad...not so much. Went to an energy saving seminar after work, had 2 slices of pizza and some water. Came home, had a yogurt and some sushi from WF. No exercise today either. Had some Werther's, those are becoming a problem.

Thursday: Ate nothing until like 1, then a banana and some DD tea. Made myself a HEC on an everything, very good. Had some yogurt and some juice/water. Ate an apple for a snack. Ed came home and whipped up some noodles with beef from the slow cooker. Then I just had some tea and some of those chocolate butter biscuit cookies and a Fiber 1 bar. That's where I am now. Kind of blah, ready for Friday.

We are going to Chez Henri tomorrow for our 5 year anniversary! Holy Crap. Feels like a decade. Just kidding, I really can't believe it's been so goddamn long. Very excited for good food and warmer temps! I need a weekend stat...and a vacation.

I am so lazy that I wrote all of this last night and didn't even post it so here is a quick follow up for Friday thus far. Wrote myself a post-it last night to wake up, run, do my arms, pack a lunch. Yeah... Snoozed twice, took a shower, barely made it out of the house by 9 [not that I'm on a tight schedule but it's Friday bitches, I want to get shizz done]. Had my HEC from finagle, consistently delicious. Had some tea, had some seltzer. Had a packet of oatmeal with a banana for lunch [I'm gorging tonight] and just had a Werther's. I'm running OUTSIDE tomorrow, mark my words. Now off to 50 degrees and my lovely boyfriend at Chez Henri. And I re-ordered good cable, I'm so typical.

Blrghcndhhhh..........fgvfv,ll........

My sentiments exactly. Let's just say I am really looking forward to the bar. And with no real reason.

Woke up late, scrambled so Ed would have time to shower in hot water and then Ed decided to text his boss and sleep in so my rushing was for not. Just kind of a whatever morning followed by an equally shitastic day. Too much traffic, I am debating whether we shoveled enough and feel like a bad neighbor, too much work, like NUTTY, again today! Spent too much $$ on food: breakfast was an everything bagel w/ Earth balance and light CC and some tea both from Dunkies. Work work work and then caf for lunch - gross. Had a ham and mustard wrap, chips, a pickle and a diet snapple. Gross. More tea, my teeth are gnarly and I swear they have a yellow-ish sheen to them that is getting worse and worse. I have totally let myself go.

Had like 3 or 4 mini Reeses late afternoon, along with a Werthers and a banana on the ride home. Did my facebook/channel 7 expose around 4, still can't decide if that's a poor choice or not. Time will tell, I guess. Still love the snowblower guy. My house is cold - I'm home now, heading to trivia shortly. I'm eating a yogurt. Just found out Erin and Josh are moving to LA. Very exciting but I am a little sad to lose a friend geographically. Whatever, I never get out West and this will be more incentive to go visit. And it's warm so I'm totally jealous already. Not that I don't love Boston, I'm never leaving.

So that's where I stand, no exercise again today and I'm in a bad mood. It's like 10 degrees out. Barf. Work was chaotic, I hate rushing around for stuff that actually doesn't need rushing, I hate taking steps in order to insure something is done a certain way and then seeing them done differently, I hate that some days I have so much to do and other days it's like a pin has dropped. I sound like such a brat! Maybe I am the "kids" I hate so much...yeesh.

I am so thankful to have a job and love the people I work with and my company is very, very decent [still don't understand most of what we sell and the teenage FTW in me will not let me entirely buy into a giant corporate ideal - but good benefits go a LONG way in my book]. I am just kind of in an annoyed rutty funk. I need to do something, I am already dreading that I'll manage to waste our time off, when it's something I really need an could put to good use. I need to start meditating or some shizzz. Off to the bar!

The Kindness of Strangers

WFH, snowy-as-hell Monday [in March: yee-haw!]. Ate my bagel and some tea, a banana, more tea. Busy like crazy today - up and running at 7:30, shoveled, sent some emails, showered. Then go-go-go: I didn't eat lunch nor go out to shovel again until after 3.

And when I did go out to shovel, somebody had already snowblowed my whole walk way! We had done some to get the car out for Ed this AM but it definitely snowed after and some super nice person decided to help us out. I am so touched, especially after the jackass that destroyed my sister's rear windshield Saturday night. The worst part is, I think the party responsible for the kindness is the dude I refer to as the meth-head that loves behind us. I'm obviously totally kidding and just trying to be funny, but will abstain from that moniker going forward. I need to give humanity a chance, I just get so bogged down with the bad stories, octo-moms and vile behavior. This made my day. Which was particularly welcome in a day that was cold and snowy and I felt nutty the whole day.

I still haven't caught up on anything, and feel overwhelmed with life. We have some weird leak going down to the basement - fun times. I got some laundry in but no exercise beyond the shoveling, my shins still hurt. And I am already sucking with my March-I-run-outside resolution - thanks mother nature. I need to attempt to do the Magoun's 5k one of these Thursdays, maybe 4/16, that's a good mini-goal. Plus it gives me 10 days to get it together if it's overly painful.

Ok so had some waffles for late lunch and more ta, some juice. Ed came home and made us salads and we had those and half a TJs pizza each. I am STARVING. How can I not eat all day and then suddenly want to ravage a grocery store once it hits 7 pm? No good. I am having a yogurt now and may crack into my early marshmallow easter bunny [per Bob Gaudet] with some more tea shortly.

Watching Season 2 of The Wire now, again. I love this shit, even though I think I've now seen this season 3 times at least. I have no NetFlix and I realized I have yet to see Season 5 so I need to get going with refreshing. Love it! Maybe a new Intervention at 9...and then Monday will be over.

When did I get so lazy?

I've always been a procrastinator, always done things last minute but I am getting like Laaa-zy as I approach 30. And previously, my putting things off was generally due to being super busy and always doing stuff, lately, not so much. Unless I know if will have repercussions involving losing my shelter or job or cause bodily harm, I am so "eh" about everything...I can't even blog for 10 minutes a day. I really need to write down my life plan, I've even been procrastinating that for over 2 months now! Accckkk!! The fact that we just started our second storm of the DAY, at 10:30 on a Sunday night - in March no less - is not helping improve spirits.

Yesterday I did 20 minute Wii-Run, almost 3 miles straight [today, day after, my calves HURT - but I didn't stretch and I haven't been running so it's understandable] and did my arms. For food:
HEC on a bagel [Princess made it for me, he is wonderful]
Tea, juice, and apple
That was all till supper: Ed made homemade boursain and we had that and roast beef and tomato on WPF focaccia - SO GOOD. I could eat it for years. Had some Guertziminer and some old chocolate I had hidden [not good, 2 bites and tossed it]. Watched "Burn After Reading" and had some popcorn and more juice...went to bed pretty early. My sickness was getting better but has been worsening today [Sunday] so I'm trying to get more and more sleep. Not the worse punishment.

Today, kind of lounged around and has some more focccia with boursin and butter for breakfast [life is so hard], and some juice and a Werther's. I shoveled the teeny but of snow we had, not really anything close to working up a sweat. then went to Ed's parents, had some BBQ chicken from the crock pot. Went home, had a couple grapes, went to the Chestnut Hill Mall. Came home, had supper: steak, squash, lasagna, broccoli, bread, some wine and some juice/h20. Had a couple of those chocolate french butter cookies and a dipper from TJ's with some after dinner orange tea. Yum! I did feel incredibly nauseous after, but I think that's cause I had like 4 cookies after a low consumption day and giant dinner. I need to learn self-control.

Just got home, watching trashy tv and going to bed soon. Had some garlic naan with earth balance and some more juice. Can't wait to WFH and SHOVEL tomorrow. Barf.

BFNP [Boring Friday Night Post]

Blah Friday, blah everyday lately. Good news was I was less sick today, still like 85% vs 100... So I WFH and my day was dead as a doornail until 1 and then it was nuts to butts. But it's over and then we went out to Sei Bar around 6:30 and it lived up and exceeded expectations! Yay!

I'm on my 3rd sequential episode of Bad Girls Club and getting ready for bed. So here's what I ate today...no exercise, but I did get some laundry done this morning.

Bagel, with tea
Fiber 1 bar
Udon noodles
Yogurt
Juice
Tea

Edamame
2 Malibu Monsoons
Chicken katsu w/ rice
Sushi
M&M chipwich

More juice, I'm super thirsty today - weird. I'm having more now.

Ok, this Aliea girl on BGC is craaazy and like funny crazy, she tries to be hard and looks like an angry 6 year old with bad highlights. I waste so much time wtaching TV. I should re-focus; here goes: Tomorrow, jogging, arms, home depot, clean, fix my floors. Maybe Old Navy. Although I just paid off my bills [relatively speaking...ha], why do I insist on spending more and more money immediately? Acck.

Someone is playing horrible techno music outside or in their apartment or something, I can hear it in my living room. Annoying. Hopefully it stops shortly, Princess will be displeased if he hears it when he gets home. Beyond that, no news is good news. Oh but I guess they're digging up my street for a month starting Monday, that will be an adventure. TGIF - Off to bed before my sickness that is waning starts to wax!

I should be at Trivia

But alas, the weather gods continue to frown heavily on my state. What is up with this? It's treacherous to drive and no one else was going so blahhh. I'm sad but really didn't want to walk there either and this is NOT drunk driving weather. Not that I ever drunk drive, but this is not even 1 beer driving weather. Next week.

I just onDemanded a new Platinum Weddings. I should caveat - I am not obsessed with getting married myself. I'd definitely like to be married someday, to Mr. Ed, and it will happen in some way or another. I'm more looking forward to a honeymoon of nothingness. I am going to an island without cell service for like a month. Or Italy for like a month. By I, I mean we - see why I shouldn't be getting married yet? However, I do loooove me some Platinum Weddings, Bridezillas, Rich Bride/Poor Bride, etc. I just find it fascinating, in the same way I love bad celebrity gossip. Anyhow, they just had their rehearsal dinner in a Wine Cave. I want a wine cave! Where do I get that?

Ok, so I left off on Sunday Night. The Steelers won, whatever. I had some thai food from a place nearby. Garlic Chicken Udon noodles, some veggie dumplings and some shumai. Really good, excited we found it. Then I had some tea and 2 reeses, a could of Dove caramels [gone now, thank god], no exercise duh.

Monday was another no exercise day, I hate Mondays. Worked from home, had my bagel, a yogurt, a banana, lots of tea and juice. Ed and I split a loaf of WPF garlic dill bread with butter for dinner. I know, not the best but this cold and dark crap is making me want to just CONSUME. And not move. Uggghh. Starting to run outside March 1. I was supposed to get organized, so I am going to calendar my life tonight, I'm already a month in and I have nothing, sad. Anyhow, had a couple of Reeses and some tea before bed.

Today I had an apple, my bagel, some tea, did 10 miles [35 min] on the bike, did my arms [still feel nauseaous after, is this what "pushing yourself" feels like? I don't like it]. Let me tangent, this endorphin bullshit is exactly that - bullshit. Exercise makes me angry, I hate it, I hate the time it takes up, I hate the way it makes me sore and tired. We'll see, I'm hoping I get through this and move into that blissful land that healthy skinny people seem to exist in. Right now it's just annoying and aggravating.

Back to food, had some juice and H2O for my workout and then some oatmeal with syrup [sugar free..meh] and bananas for a late lunch. I just had 1 square of Shaw's frozen pizza [not Roachies, but it's close]. And I ordered a large pizza, salad and some mozerella sticks from Angelina's that are on their way. I'm bad. I need some kind of kick in the ass, the Wii-fit ain't cutting it. Enough with the ranting, once the snow stops I'll feel better. Now back to MTV True Life "I'm in a love triangle". Who could ask for anything more?

Super[?]bowl Sunday

Certainly doesn't feel like much of a Super Sunday, oh well. I say bring on Spring Training. The puppy bowl is adorable, I admit...but right now we're watching old Law&Order and I'm figuring out whether to be good or bad for supper. We need to find a go-to chinese restaurant around here...I am craving some kind of dumpling.

This morning I had some IB early, some tea, a bagel and some tomato-cheesey-eggs courtesy of Princess. Then I made myself some grilled cheese mid-afternoon and had some juice/seltzer. I went through my correspondence [a constant in my life] and took the dog out a few times. I Wii-fitted for 42 minutes including a 20 minute, 2.5 mile faux run; and I did my arms. I have felt sick since...weird. I waited like an hour and half after eating to work out but I still feel kind of sick. And the grilled cheese was p-e-r-f-e-c-t, cooked just right, not greasy just amazing.

It may be a combo of work dread and I've been up since 7:45. I am definitely not ready for a dog. When I feel I am ready, we will be getting the most lethargic animal ever and patching the holes in the fence. A dog door, and we're golden. Although I must say, Mia is sleeping on Ed's legs right now while he naps [SHOCK] on the couch and it's pretty damn cute.

Ok, off to look up chinese restaurants in Medford on Yelp. Between that, laundry and emptying out my Yahoo, things are getting craaa-zzy. Bah.

Wow I missed a week.

I started this Monday and jotted things down like 40 times all week so this is a progressive piece, but still - I'm lazy. I have a major case of the winter blahs, nothing serious just a strong urge to stay in bed and/or eat mashed potatoes and cinnamon rolls at all times. Actually, now that I read that, not that different from everyday life minus the bed thing. Oh well. I just want it to be warmish, I loathe the cold.

So it's been a bit since Saturday…about which, I remembered I had an apple during the day as well. For my Saturday night date with my couch [we're almost going steady], I had that yogurt, some tea, some peas with butter, 2 chocolates and some water. Went to bed earlyish and read, Ed was at a party at Mark's until 2 or so.

Sunday, I did 30 minutes of biking to IASIP, did some of my arms and weighed myself on the Wii-Fit. Went to the parents and had some beef, potatoes, gravy, broccoli, a roll w/butter, wine, some juice, and a teeny cup of mint chocolate Dove ice cream. Got home and had some Chex mix, more tea, 2 dove chocolates, and more juice. Do I eat too much? I don't think I eat so much BAD stuff as my portion control is in fact out of control. That will be the name of my first diet book once I get skinny - patent-pending so hands off, bitches. I just get so rude and angry and lifeless when I don't eat enough. Like my dad does correct portions but then I come home and eat a snack, or 7. Not good - when will I inherit my parents' good habits? Accckkk.

Quick review of the week, pretty boring:

Monday
I had some instant breakfast, my bagel, some tea, some juice.
Worked from home and had some chili over rice w/ jack cheese.
More tea, a giant hunk [like 2.5 good size pieces] of bread and butter for dinner.
Then some more tea and a SKOR bar. B&B for dinner = heaven.

Tuesday
Bagel w/ B&C, some Tea
99 for lunch half a RB sandwich and some salad, with free popcorn [can't say no] to start and a diet coke.
I think I had a banana when I got home?
Went to Trivia: had my pizza and 3 beers and we suuucked it and lost hardcore.

Wednesday
I W'dFH again and made some bomb-ass [1996 lingo] WPF French toast
This filled me up and I had it pretty late so I had Udon noodles as a snack.
And then a Bagel w/B&C for dinner [what?]
A Banana, 2 dove chocolates, some tea
Water, juice, throughout the day; some riesling and some popcorn during Top Chef.

Wow, in review I did zero exercise Monday/Tuesday/Wednesday: BAD. I need cable in the Offigym [just christened it that] STAT.

Thursday
Went to WF, had my Bagel and some Tea
Some H20, hit up McD's for my happy meal for lunch
Ed made Burritos for dinner [yum - and I only had one because they're FILLING]
We split a dessert Watchamacallit….ooh and I had a couple of Mini-Reeses on the way home
56 min on bike [16 miles] // Arms [20 reps of each]

Friday
No exercise
Finagle big-ass HEC w/ Bacon on an everything, DD Large Tea
Seltzer throughout the morning [keeps me awake]
Med chili from ABP [mehh], Diet Pepsi
Teeny square of Bob's lasgna [made up for the chili]
1 Piece of scali bread and butter
Dessert was a mini-slice of carrot cake and a mini-éclair. Both were delicious, and local: have I mentioned I LOVE Medford? F the North End, it's so much easier to park here.
And we got a turbine! Yes, let me tangent for a moment: we now have a large and in charge, and very visible wind turbine in the back of one of our schools on 93. I am very proud of my new city, I think this type of stuff actually makes a dent in a potential issue, in a responsible and non-obnoxious way. It's a smart and future-thinking idea and I think it cost over half a million dollars but I am totally ok with that [my brain rarely allows crazy spending like this under the strict confines of my old-white-man POV]. I was siked to see it tonight on my way to my parents, I did a small cheer. The more I live here, the more I feel really comfortable and pleased with our decision. Time will tell, but I am really siked to be a happy homeowner, even if it means sitting on my couch blogging in Target clearance rack pajama pants on a Saturday night. Which is what I'm back to doing right now. In fairness, I've shopped the clearance rack since Targets came here [Oh-Happy-Day! I've been watching way too much Big love lately]. It's also cold and I prefer hibernating to pretty much anything else right now but….

Come to think of it, I'm actually in a much better mood now [Saturday night, even though my time line above is only up to Friday - sorry, I'm confusing] than I was when I started this earlier this week. I love visiting my parents and sleeping late, 2 things this weekend has allowed already. Now I am dog-sitting and will not be able to sleep in tomorrow, but hopefully I can go back to bed. Or actually make my Sunday productive and wake up early. That's no fun! We'll see how early I get up.

Back to Friday/yesterday: Small post-work trip to Desfina: couple pieces of calamari, one amazing piece of uber-garlic bread w/ tomatoes, some fries with mayo [yes, mayo]. I also had 2 glasses of wine, which reminds me I had a Corona and come chaaaaadonnay at work [earnings meeting in a recession, needs booze]. We came home and I had a mini-reeses or 2, I think? One of those Fridays, and I'm learning the recap is not my string suit anymore. Sad. I did a drunken walk to Whole Foods around 9pm. For some Cinnamon Bun Ben and Jerry's - which prompted me to shout its delicious merits while consuming it last night. It is amazing, I wish it had 0 calories.

Now as I mentioned, today is Saturday. Darling woke me up with a HEC on a bagel. Had some Tea and Juice. Ate a Banana pre-workout. And a Reeses mini. Went to my parents and had killer LBS en route so I ate an apple. At 5 Keane, had a glass of Wine, really awesome Cook's recipe baked ziti, some WPF ciabatta that I brought. Speaking of which, newsflash of the century is that if I could stop eating bread products - not even all carbs, just frigging bread - I'd look like Kate Moss. It doesn't seem that much when I eat it, even though I know I'm being naughty. But then I have to type this and read it and spell check and I'm just like "Sheeit, I'm lucky I don't look like Jabba The Hut". Back to supper: broccoli and chicken in a lemon glaze rounded it out. I had some cranberry juice and then we had teeny pieces of a WPF [yes, also me] Chocolate bread Pudding cake with some mint chip Dove ice cream and peppermint tea for dessert. Yummy! I came home and had some tea and cinnamon-sugar scali toast [with Smart Balance and surprisingly ok - I had 2 pieces]. I was late for dinner because I worked out to episode 3 of The Tudors today: 12.5 miles on bike [40 min] and my armcersises [I'm on a roll tonight!] - 20 reps of each per arm.

That's it, my head is spinning and it's 12:20 so I'm going to take Miss Mia out and go to bed. Tomorrow is the Super Bowl, I would care less. Although the Phantom Gourmet guys are making me want to eat a spread the size of a small state. I will try to resist. I need to get things done tomorrow, I am so sick of weekend where I accomplish nothing, it's pretty much every weekend. I need something to kick me in the ass. And I need to win the lottery. Excuse my typos and nonsense, long and dull week. Hopefully February is the New January. TTFN!

Just another cra-zy Saturday night

I had TJ's instant oats and flax for lunch, and then a yogurt. Then we went to Desfina and I had a beer after work. I actually wound up having 3, what else is new. I had a bag of Sun Chips and probably 5-7 of Andy's hand cut fries. Then we went to see Jenny Dee and the Deeeelinquents at the Cask N Flagon, they were fabulous but that is no surprise. We then headed to Crossroads [me, Erin, Ed, Pickles and Crotty] and I had like half of another Corona, a DC, a cheeseburger and a few fries. Fries were not good. I then got a pounding headache, came home, took some Advil and fell right asleep.

Today was wasted trying to get Red Sox tickets, I love my team, and I love paying face value. I got in a few times but only was able to get section 35 [barf] or SRO and the tried to get better and got booted. Whatever, it would've been more on the credit card and I'm trying to save, right? So yeah, had some Instant Breakfast and tea and chained myself to the computer between laundry and tidying up.

Lindsay R came over for a bit on her way home from a shower, I had some Chex Mix and water. Then I made some Kraft Alfredo mac n cheese, a teeny bit of Boones, and a giant piece of garlic bread. Ed actually found bread at WF that I don't like, a first. It's ok, but sour doughy in a strong way that is not good. Does this stop me from eating it? Hell's to the no. The day I do not eat bread that's available in my house, Armageddon is on the way for sure. It's an extra disappointment because Ed got this really good butter that he says is awesome but I can't really tell - it's yummy but I think I'm missing out on the amazing factor. Alas, I don't need to fall in love with expensive, fatty-ass butter. Especially when I'm not exercising. Which I didn't today. But will tomorrow. Yes.

Back to Miss America on TLC [WOW train wreck, and I thought my reality shows were entertaining...they've got nothing on this] and organizing my life. Princess is at his brother's house of debauchery, doing god knows what so I have the house to myself. I am relishing in losering it up. Off to eat a limited edition Apple Pie yogurt from Stonyfield Farms, then maybe some tea. I need to try and remember to grab my laundry before I fall asleep. These are my roaring 20's.....

I love free stuff

And as I've mentioned a bit lately, I'm turning into a bit of a dirty hippy in my old age. That being said, I read in a fellow-blog that I follow about a promo for free web-hosting space! This is awesome since it's such a useful thing taht I need, but paying for it seems wack. You have to link to it in your blog and vow for what you are going to do to make the world greener. That was horrific grammar, thankfully bad word choices don't enlarge my carbon footprint.

Ok, so I have no idea if I'm doing this right but anyone who read this, link here for good info and how-to's on getting your own space:

So here are my resolutions:

I will only print necessary documents at work, and lately that is very very little.

If I have to print, I will do it double sided.

I will also try and consolidate documents as much as possible.

I will research and purchase refillable ink cartridges for my home printer, for printing photos or projects.

I will research and purchase recycled photo paper.

I will use less post-its [already bought a voice recorder and have started using the virtual notepad in my iPhone].

I will use the front and back of papers for notes [my mom has been doing this for years!].

I will tele-commute more.

I will take the bus when I go to my local, city office.

I've started using old magazines to keep my boots upright, prop up uneven house-wares, etc. Will keep this up!

I feel better already....what a great idea! This is in-line with my personal theory that the reusable bags at Whole Foods should be free. I know people would abuse this, but it's a shame. Instead they cost a couple bucks, which isn't a lot and I've bought them but it does seem counter-intuitive. Now if only they would install a voice-box on the bags that shouts at me when I leave for the grocery store. Ive been improving though, will resolve to keep that up too!

So the above has nothing to do with food; real quick:
so far DD HEC on a croissant, a tea and some Instant Breakfast.
Had some popcorn and 5 [yes, 5] doves chocolates last night in bed. It's like a luxe hotel on the second floor of my house...what?