Wednesdays will be things I'm thankful for.

On today, I am thankful for:

1. I am healthy as shit, the older I get, the more important this becomes.

2. My family is awesome in a noninvasive way. So is Ed's. What are the odds?

3. My MacBook. Srsly, LOVE.

4. Maintaining an income even though I'm unemployed; way luckier than others even if I pout like Bitter Sally ALL DAY LONG

5. Not giving a shit about weddings or babies. I would have no hair left. And I'm glad it's not a fake and stressful not caring, it's legit. Way better stuff to focus on in life. I do give a shit that Ed will be my husband one day, and for that I am ALSO thankful.

Off to Fenway, where Dice-K better give me some more stuff to be thankful for...

Oh Yeah

So I'm thinking rather that being the constant whiny Gen Xer that I am, I'm going to do lists every week of stuff that doesn't suck.

Mondays will be things I'm looking forward to [maybe even goals - GOALS!].
Wednesdays will be things I'm thankful for.
Fridays will be anything that makes me happy or is good.

Kick-start:

1. i'm excited that my parents are getting a dog

2. I'm looking forward to a freshly scrubbed kitchen floor [sad face]

3. My BIRTHDAY is SUNDAY!!!

4. We are going to erbaluce for above-mentioned birthday...yesss.

5. Casino night could be a success, could. Should?
God knows I bought enough furniture, accessories and outfits that I'm ging to have to justify at least one more down the road.

3 Day Instant Weekend

3 glorious days off and squat to show for it. I had such grand hopes and basically wound up breathing in too much bleach and yelling at Ed. Which would be fine except that he got me a beauteous new macbook for my birthday and I am a big jerk. But he is also a big jerk as I have no time this week to do anything and we have my birthday party on Saturday, so we were supposed to get the house into tip-top shape. And he promised! The promise resulted in him hanging 2 shades and a couple curtains. Thanks.

Anyhow, I'm back to my nearly constant state of no relaxation and no productivity. Barf. I did sleep a lot. And had some good burgers. And this thing is so shiny and perfect it kind of makes up for it. Needless to say, my week will not allow for exercise nor did last week. I have been eating ok, still too much but I cut back on sweets. Minus the JP Licks trip I berated Ed into tonight. I have a 7.5 miler on June 27th so June 7th training goes into full gear minus Martha's wedding. It seems daunting, but I think I'm just despondent in general. Off to bed, this post is just to put in writing [cause that helps so much...] that I now have no excuse to shy away from the blog. Half marathon in less than SIX MONTHS - FTW!

Here's what's going to happen

It's 1.5 hours until December. I have basically wasted another whole year of life - but it's not too late. December can be the new January and then January might ACTUALLY work for once in my life. Sadly, I just realized that today, November 30th, I ate bagels w/ CC, tea, Iggy's bread with cheese and tomatoes, more tea, juice, japanese white rice with soy sauce, more tea, 2 pieces of garlic bread. And a banana. For real, I have the White/Beige food group covered but I'm missing the rest. And I'm starving. Alas. Upward and onward.

First, good things from this year:
1. Princess gave me this beautiful ring that I stare at constantly. I love it in so many ways and am so happy-happy with him. Now when I turn onto my dreaded stretch of 495 en route to Westford, I am pleasantly surprised by a universe of mini rainbows from the sun reflecting off of it onto the inside of my car.

2. I turned 30, no great shakes but an accomplishment in itself. I am an adult! My party sucked, but I'm glad to have good friends and that Mark has since stopped drinking.

3. One year in the house, no disasters. This is a mini-miracle.

4. Fun trips - Cali, Seattle, visits to friends. VEGAS THIS WEEKEND! As much as I bemoan traveling, it makes life interesting. Plus new food establishments are always welcome.

5. Family is happy and healthy, myself and Linus included. Sometimes that's all you need.

Ok, so now let's plan. Major upcoming events:

Vegas 12/3-7 I'm eating whatever I want and not jogging, FTW.
Ed b-day dinner 12/19 Free pass.
X-Mas 12/23-5 Again, anything goes. Maybe I'll try moving at least one of these days.
NYE 12/31 We may have a party, I may put on 5 lbs. Although I ate very little at the Halloween fest.

After that, free and clear for running and salads [joy!]. In focus, I have Martha's wedding in June and Meagan's and like half my female cousins in September. These are all motivating. If I see one more picture of me at a wedding with granny arms, I'll shit. Going to try and lose 30 lbs by June, 40 by Sept. Is this nuts? Probably but I'd like to check out Ms. Moss' [paraphrased] sentiment "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels" for myself as a grown up. I can always go back to over-eating and sitting on the couch later in life. Plus this gives me a head start for my actual wedding for which I need to look fabulous. I'm thinking 3/6/11 in Portland at VooDoo Donuts [a free pass day as well], we'll see. Ed should probably have a say in this too...hmm....

So I'm thinking 10k again this April and then...half marathon in the Fall? Maybe? I need to research a. easy courses and b. how/if you pee while running that far. Seriously, I am obsessed over this aspect. I had to stop once on a mini-training jog to tie my shoe and it was PAINFUL to restart. And I can't imagine jogging in place while squatting on the side of the road? Gross, I need to stop thinking about this.

Ok, off to bed. I'm not going to lie and say I'll be back tomorrow, but I am going to prepare my training/eating master plan on the flight to Vegas Thursday night. So till then!

Blunk Drogging

I got my drink on and we had some in house good times and karaoke.

Happy:

1. This trail mix Becky gave me in Ventura 2 weeks ago that I'm just eating now. I guess I should be thankful for plastic baggies too.

2. Gin. How I love thee.

3. My normal boyfriend. He may frustrate me and make me crazy from time to time, but I am a lucky girl.

Blog v2.0

I'm not even going to fake it with the where the fuck did the past 3 months go comments...it was summer, I am 30, people I know like to get married, and have babies, and move, and host BBQs. I like to go on vacation and to Red Sox games and out for dinner. The economy sucks and I'd like to keep my job. I have no excuses.

So as I mentioned in my last post, I need a new sub-title. I am now 30, a rubenesque-joggy 30. I have good days and bad - ran a 5k with Bobby G on Sunday and just wolfed 4 plus-sized Nutella s'mores because it's Thursday and why not. Que sera, sera.

I keep reading all these blogs and getting Blog-Envy [lamest sounding term ever, noted] so I am really going to REALLY try and get it together for October. New month, new quarter, no big interuptive vacations or events planned for the near future. The weather is lovely, life is pretty good. I need to embrace it and take note. I'm deciding my 30s are going to get a bit more introspective. Not wackadoo-hippy, and hopefully not old, but I really do need to get it together to stop feeling so pointlessly frantic all the time.

One of my new, or old but new recognization [is that a word? no], goals is to not whine.bitch.complain so goddamn much. Or if I do at least also take the time to consider how awesome 99.99999999997% of my life actually is. This will yield more lists, yay and nay, good and bad, happy and annoyed, whatever and whatever. I LOVE LISTS! ProRun is almost over and I'm sick so I need to go to bed but to start here are 5 things I'm happy and thankful for right now:

1. I love my house. I love turning on to my street. I love my overgrown yard. I love my mess.

2. I love that we are going to Vegas in December. It's not even October and I can almost TASTE it already.

3. I love cable. Sad sad sad but true.

4. I love that tomorrow is Friday.

5. I love that I have a washer and dryer in my own basement. Laundry is so much more palatable when you do not need to leave your house to do it.

And as a bonus per the preview I just watched, 6. I love that MICHAEL KORS IS BACK on Runway next week! Woot!

1 non-love is that another bulb in the chandelier just blew....that leaves me with 2 out of 6 remaining. It's like 1890 up in here.

Time to change the blog-blurb

Because I am no longer "trying" not to be a fat 30 year old. I am in fact 30, and I am still a little too thick around the middle for my liking. I've been lazy. What else is new? Being lazy is a theme of my life I keep trying to deny, but I L-O-V-E doing nothing!

Adding fuel to the fire, work is slow due to our lovely economy. With that, it's also an odd mix of stressy and paranoid. I still have stuff to do [a good thing!] but minus the normal screw ups, I have a lot of down-time. One would think this would increase the amount of blogging, but not the case. Lack of inspiration or motivation or activity or whatever is like quicksand, it sucks you in! I always thought I was lying [or "exaggerating" as we say in sales] when asked in an interview what my weaknesses were and I always replied "I need to have more to do rather than less". Apparently this prophesy has self-fulfilled.

With the amount of time I have on my hands these days I should have a clean house, 3 handmade dresses, a couple domestic projects started, my magazine clippings organized and archived, a spreadsheet of my life color-coded for reference, my eyeshadows organized by shade, and some needlepoint started. Instead I have half-ass attempts at getting it together. The piles of post-its are worse than ever! So I need to really get it together, for real.

One plus to being 30 is that I've noticed when I try and talk myself out of exercising, a part of my brain creeps in with "You're not getting any younger". Not in a mean way [I am president of my own fan club, always], but in a factual way. Seriously, I'm 30. This is so far applying to eyecream and exercising, and eating healthy - sort of. Just this July, AKA Newly Inspired July [even if I have to fake it], I have been pretty good - running yesterday and riding the bike today. Granted I had both days off, but the hope is that I get into a good groove through Sunday and then it carries over to the work week and FOREVER! Life changes are good it they are positive.

I will try and use this to hold me accountable, fingers crossed. Let's see, since forever ago what's changed. Not a whole lot, same house, same job [yay!], Ed and I still love eachother, no pets. New TV, my sister is a blessed human and decided to buy is a 40 inch flat screen for fun. Love her. Still go to trivia, family is still well and good. Michael Jackson and Farrah Fawcett died last week. I'm only throwing that out there because I'm watching MTV on my giant television and there is a constant scroll of MJ news. We had an awesome vacation to Seattle/SF and while it's kind of sad to have nothing to look forward to, it's sooo nice to have that out of the way. I have something to talk about when people ask and nothing to pack or save money for for the balance of the summer. Work Lindsay and I are planning a Thelma & Louise trip to the West, but that is contingent upon us keeping our employment.

So it's July 2, let's recap so far and I need to promise to keep up on things better.
Wed 7/1
No work [mandatory PTO], got a new TV. Ran 2.2 miles in the mist [have I mentioned it does nothing but rain these days?]. Breakfast was scrambled eggs w/ cheese and 2 slices of toast, tea, some seltzery concoction. Spent the day shopping, treated myself to McDonalds post-Wal-Mart [does it get more American than that?]...it was so good. It was a day off, I like to have fully wonderful days off. Bad shopping and fast food were necessary to deal with the craptacular that Mother Nature was putting on outside. Ed came home and we ordered Pizza and had that with beer. I've taken to mixing my UFO with seltzer and lemonade and it is divine. So I had half a Pinky's basil and tomato and a small bowl of caesar salad and a beer. Not awful. I don't think I had desert, we have nothing in the house desert-worthy but I am so spacey lately that I can't remember.

Thu 7/2
Ondemand on my cable is busted. Comcast really sucks, I hope FIOS gets here quickly and is a big imporvement. Biked for 45 min while watching the end of The Money Pit, about 10 miles. I had a HEC on TJs whole grain toast and some tea and juice. I also had most of an apple [I used part of it to set new fruit fly traps, we have an issue this week due to an overripe pineapple and Darling's inability to use the trash can for disposal of food items]. I just had a slice of pizza for a late lunch. I need to eat more frequently I think, I got from full to starving and then full-full again and it's annoying. Add it to the list. Speaking of which, here are some current life goals:

Keep a better blog.

Eat fewer sweets, cut down from half the breadbasket to a piece.

Run or something every day.

Get up to a half marathon before it snows.

Get my budget and calendar in order.
I have a goddamn iPhone 3Gs [new, and I LOVE it], they must have an app for this.

Do dog research, not for now...but maybe like 2012. I like a long runway.
We're back to thinking bull terriers. They are badass.

Get rid of fruitflies in our house. This is nasty.

Maybe I should add "watch better TV" to my list. I just discovered Maria Full of Grace is on IFC. It has SUB-TITLES! I have never watched anything in my life with sub-titles. I think I've heard this is good, and I know it has something to do with drugs and teenagers, 2 themes I enjoy, so I'm going to stick it out. Very hard to type and read the television simultaneously so that's all for now. Gaudet, out!