My blood sugar is so low right now I can barely think, and I just spent 1 hr hanging up clean laundry. The WORST. My brain is a constant hamster wheel of things I'm forgetting. Ugh.
Anyhow, despite of my HORRIBLE LIFE [sarcasm, of course], here's what I'm appreciating today:
1. job got renewed for 3 more months. Frustrating in ways and still not my life's passion but it's opening some doors and moreover it's cash-money.
2. my birthday being over. Birthdays and holidays are always massive build-up and then some semi-fun fizzle with good food. Such was the case. I need to realize I don't live in The Great Gatsby and get a better idea of what it really means to have a party, BEFORE I'm in the middle of it.
3. my beautiful diamond ring. It scared me at first, and marriage scares me in general [not due to ed, due to being a full-on adult], but I stare at this shizz daily and it always makes me smile.
4. my cat being 13 with no end in sight; that would seriously crush me
5. beer plan with the KAS. Could turn out awesome, and I am in dire need of a lit fire under my ass.
5b. I got a new print in the mail from the KAS, and it is beautiful. I've already framed it and I'm figuring out where to put it. Ahht.
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Monday, June 7, 2010
Monday List
I ran to Target in Somerville and back part of the way [Ed met me and we walked the rest, perfect weather!]. 5 miles. Like 70 minutes...14 minute miles?! Acck, I'm supposed to be getting faster not slower. 2h10m half marathon is moving far, far away vs closer as hoped. And I ate like a pig this weekend, but it WAS my birthday. And I haven't run in 2 weeks. I need to get it together. Running 4-5 times a week - no excuses!
My list of things I'm excited for-
1. Getting married. Who knows when, but I'm getting more stoked on this.
Def just the 2 of us, and that's the part I want - the party aspect gives me anxiety.
2. Setting up my calendar and addresses on the MacBook, total dork.
3. My bike helmet will lead to biking. This will lead to being skinny which will help me look pretty for #1.
4. Maybe a new real job. Maybe?
5. The summer not being busy. Please let this happen. I need it. If busy involves an impromptu trip to SF for a long weekend, that's acceptable. If busy involves bullshit that eats up my whole summer, I will be displeased.
My list of things I'm excited for-
1. Getting married. Who knows when, but I'm getting more stoked on this.
Def just the 2 of us, and that's the part I want - the party aspect gives me anxiety.
2. Setting up my calendar and addresses on the MacBook, total dork.
3. My bike helmet will lead to biking. This will lead to being skinny which will help me look pretty for #1.
4. Maybe a new real job. Maybe?
5. The summer not being busy. Please let this happen. I need it. If busy involves an impromptu trip to SF for a long weekend, that's acceptable. If busy involves bullshit that eats up my whole summer, I will be displeased.
Friday, June 4, 2010
ps
It's free donut day at Dunkin' Donuts. Not the best tasting thing ever and def not the best thing to put in my body, but free is free and a Boston Creme at 6:50 am while driving to suburban office park hell is not the worst thing in the world.
TGIF
For real, this week has been bleeccchhhh. Way too busy with work stuff and post-work commitments. Last week too. On the positive, I am so much more productive when stressed and time-crunched, but the production is for work or stuff for other people. Translate to, my house is still a mess and tomorrow is going to be frantic up until 3:58. I need to figure out how to channel my energy to the parts of my life that matter.
happy or good list-
1. Chesterfield sofas, come on.....
2. Chanel purses
3. Tea
4. McDonald's sundaes. [what's up, profile pic!]. Maybe McDonald's in general, minus the whole giant corporation, fake food, people are fat aspect
5. Macerated strawberries, I'm making you tonight
I'm thinking I may need to move this list to Thursday and make Friday a lessons learned from the week post. This week I learned:
1. I will use any excuse in the world to "not find time to exercise". Even with a SEVEN.FIVE miles RACE coming up in THREE WEEKS. I haven't run in 2! FML.
2. I am a crazy person when it comes to my job. Fickle and emotional and all over the place. I am completely the opposite of this in every other part of my life. And I should clarify, I'm not fickle or emotional or nutso when doing actual work, just when thinking about where I'm at, where I'm going, what I want. This better go away by 35.
3. Parties make me nervous. I knew this.
4. Ed and I can fight while cleaning without breaking things, progress - yay!
5. I love spending money. LOVE. I knew this too, but it needs to be typed because it can turn into a Bad Scene.
happy or good list-
1. Chesterfield sofas, come on.....
2. Chanel purses
3. Tea
4. McDonald's sundaes. [what's up, profile pic!]. Maybe McDonald's in general, minus the whole giant corporation, fake food, people are fat aspect
5. Macerated strawberries, I'm making you tonight
I'm thinking I may need to move this list to Thursday and make Friday a lessons learned from the week post. This week I learned:
1. I will use any excuse in the world to "not find time to exercise". Even with a SEVEN.FIVE miles RACE coming up in THREE WEEKS. I haven't run in 2! FML.
2. I am a crazy person when it comes to my job. Fickle and emotional and all over the place. I am completely the opposite of this in every other part of my life. And I should clarify, I'm not fickle or emotional or nutso when doing actual work, just when thinking about where I'm at, where I'm going, what I want. This better go away by 35.
3. Parties make me nervous. I knew this.
4. Ed and I can fight while cleaning without breaking things, progress - yay!
5. I love spending money. LOVE. I knew this too, but it needs to be typed because it can turn into a Bad Scene.
Wednesday, June 2, 2010
Wednesdays will be things I'm thankful for.
On today, I am thankful for:
1. I am healthy as shit, the older I get, the more important this becomes.
2. My family is awesome in a noninvasive way. So is Ed's. What are the odds?
3. My MacBook. Srsly, LOVE.
4. Maintaining an income even though I'm unemployed; way luckier than others even if I pout like Bitter Sally ALL DAY LONG
5. Not giving a shit about weddings or babies. I would have no hair left. And I'm glad it's not a fake and stressful not caring, it's legit. Way better stuff to focus on in life. I do give a shit that Ed will be my husband one day, and for that I am ALSO thankful.
Off to Fenway, where Dice-K better give me some more stuff to be thankful for...
1. I am healthy as shit, the older I get, the more important this becomes.
2. My family is awesome in a noninvasive way. So is Ed's. What are the odds?
3. My MacBook. Srsly, LOVE.
4. Maintaining an income even though I'm unemployed; way luckier than others even if I pout like Bitter Sally ALL DAY LONG
5. Not giving a shit about weddings or babies. I would have no hair left. And I'm glad it's not a fake and stressful not caring, it's legit. Way better stuff to focus on in life. I do give a shit that Ed will be my husband one day, and for that I am ALSO thankful.
Off to Fenway, where Dice-K better give me some more stuff to be thankful for...
Monday, May 31, 2010
Oh Yeah
So I'm thinking rather that being the constant whiny Gen Xer that I am, I'm going to do lists every week of stuff that doesn't suck.
Mondays will be things I'm looking forward to [maybe even goals - GOALS!].
Wednesdays will be things I'm thankful for.
Fridays will be anything that makes me happy or is good.
Kick-start:
1. i'm excited that my parents are getting a dog
2. I'm looking forward to a freshly scrubbed kitchen floor [sad face]
3. My BIRTHDAY is SUNDAY!!!
4. We are going to erbaluce for above-mentioned birthday...yesss.
5. Casino night could be a success, could. Should?
God knows I bought enough furniture, accessories and outfits that I'm ging to have to justify at least one more down the road.
Mondays will be things I'm looking forward to [maybe even goals - GOALS!].
Wednesdays will be things I'm thankful for.
Fridays will be anything that makes me happy or is good.
Kick-start:
1. i'm excited that my parents are getting a dog
2. I'm looking forward to a freshly scrubbed kitchen floor [sad face]
3. My BIRTHDAY is SUNDAY!!!
4. We are going to erbaluce for above-mentioned birthday...yesss.
5. Casino night could be a success, could. Should?
God knows I bought enough furniture, accessories and outfits that I'm ging to have to justify at least one more down the road.
3 Day Instant Weekend
3 glorious days off and squat to show for it. I had such grand hopes and basically wound up breathing in too much bleach and yelling at Ed. Which would be fine except that he got me a beauteous new macbook for my birthday and I am a big jerk. But he is also a big jerk as I have no time this week to do anything and we have my birthday party on Saturday, so we were supposed to get the house into tip-top shape. And he promised! The promise resulted in him hanging 2 shades and a couple curtains. Thanks.
Anyhow, I'm back to my nearly constant state of no relaxation and no productivity. Barf. I did sleep a lot. And had some good burgers. And this thing is so shiny and perfect it kind of makes up for it. Needless to say, my week will not allow for exercise nor did last week. I have been eating ok, still too much but I cut back on sweets. Minus the JP Licks trip I berated Ed into tonight. I have a 7.5 miler on June 27th so June 7th training goes into full gear minus Martha's wedding. It seems daunting, but I think I'm just despondent in general. Off to bed, this post is just to put in writing [cause that helps so much...] that I now have no excuse to shy away from the blog. Half marathon in less than SIX MONTHS - FTW!
Anyhow, I'm back to my nearly constant state of no relaxation and no productivity. Barf. I did sleep a lot. And had some good burgers. And this thing is so shiny and perfect it kind of makes up for it. Needless to say, my week will not allow for exercise nor did last week. I have been eating ok, still too much but I cut back on sweets. Minus the JP Licks trip I berated Ed into tonight. I have a 7.5 miler on June 27th so June 7th training goes into full gear minus Martha's wedding. It seems daunting, but I think I'm just despondent in general. Off to bed, this post is just to put in writing [cause that helps so much...] that I now have no excuse to shy away from the blog. Half marathon in less than SIX MONTHS - FTW!
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